I’ve been really mean inside lately and secretly directing it all to one person but that has got to go because that person didn’t do anything wrong. It sucks because sometimes you falsely direct all your hatred on someone who’s smaller than you when really you want to direct all those emotions to other things and other people. Although I don’t outwardly show these emotions, I carry and breathe them. My heart is black and it’s time to wipe it clean with some serious sprays of Windex… I only have a few months left here anyway; I know I can do better and I must!!!
What happened today was absolutely astonishing and showed me how blinded I was by anger and frustration. I’m turning 18 in a few days and I want to turn eighteen, happy. So farewell, mean, ugly monster inside me. Fuckyou, and don’t stay in touch.